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sleep away
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
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Ah, it has yet again been forever since I posted in this old place. As a reminder, I use a livejournal now. It is indeed friends only, so poke me with a message at fiore777's journal if you want to see what I've been up to. Last time I posted in this journal I talked about how I was getting into MMORPGs. Now I am completely addicted to World of Warcraft ^^ Soon I will be in my senior year of college, can't say I'm particularly happy about that. Got to worry about a senior project @_@; On the bright side, I'm still with James, whatever that means, he's as sweet and spazzy as ever. No clue what I want to do following college, and that is bad considering I only have a year left. Who knows when I'll post in here again. See ya later to whoever happens to stumble by here after I type this.
I tells you lies at 12:08 AM
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Tuesday, April 27, 2004
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*waves* XD back for another random post as usual ^^; Currently been getting into MMORPGs and first person shooter games because of James @_@;; Got two major projects due in oh...about a day >.< *scurries off to do work* I would love nothing then to sleep, amazingly enough. Have a spiffy time you kids XD
Also, where are my shoes? ;.;
I tells you lies at 12:52 AM
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Thursday, April 15, 2004
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Another spastic post from fiore XD; Currently haven't been up to much of anything ^^; Just the usual downloading jrock and aquiring random anime and music from people ^^;;; Currently need to drag two of my grades up, not passing either of those classes >.>;;;;
I tells you lies at 3:41 PM
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Friday, January 23, 2004
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Oh yes, went home for winter break. Nothing much interesting happened, caught up on a bunch of manga XD Now I'm behind on anime XD Current must watch series: Chrno Crusade. In the meantime, I am using up all of James' computer's memory XDDD Got a lot to watch and delete XD
Currently back at college and just started classes for about a week. I'm already tired, but at least two or so of the courses seem interesting ^^;
I tells you lies at 1:08 PM
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Monday, December 01, 2003
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fiore just realized it has been ages since he has posted in his blog ^^;; Got a load of random anime/manga while at home. Had so much to catch up on. Though instead of working on getting anime stuff I should have doing some more of my homework XD; It is a wonder I did any of my work at all over the break. At least I finished reading The Stand, I didn't much care for the ending, but I'm glad I finished a 1141 book @_@; Though I am proud that I finally got episodes 1-52 of One Piece on DVD XD I wonder how long the series is @_@; Anime and jrock will be the death of me _-_;;
As for is there anything new? I don't know. Currently I know that my feelings about James continues to flux. I don't know what I really feel for him, and maybe I'll never know.
Erk, I have class in about 10 minutes @_@;; I can't believe that the semester is almost over @_@;;
I tells you lies at 2:11 PM
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Saturday, November 15, 2003
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Aww...what a cute couple is what people say
Aww...what a codependent couple James and I are is what I think
hm...not that I really think we are a couple, but whatever. We both agree and know that this isn't meant to last. It is generally a bond between two lonely people. We both know that. He says he loves me. I know he only does because there is no one else. I don't love him. I know I do care very much for him. But...oddly...I think I've grown to need him. I've become codependent with him. Just..great. Before him I was broken and unstable, but still able to support myself on my unstable frame. Now...he's replaced whatever unstable hold I did have on this life with my vague dependence on him. Currently I seem to be fine and not dependent at all. He seems to be the one who really needs me. But when he's gone, I feel I will break more. I will be left without even my own unstable stablily to rely upon. Surely I'm blaming him unreasonably. Still, I can't help but think that things would be better for me without him. Things are good as they are, I suppose. I still hate life, but he distracts me and makes me enjoy moments briefly. But when it all ends? What will happen to me? I know he will move on, he told me himself that he knows we aren't meant for each other and that the pain of my being gone would fade away. But...what would I feel? That is why I want to end things soon. Or at least become more distant, to just be good aquaintances. Nothing more.
I tells you lies at 9:45 PM
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Tuesday, October 14, 2003
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I currently feel obligated to random post here, but since no one visits, I probably have no real reason to. Still, maybe since I started online journaling stuff using a blog, perhaps I feel I should still keep it alive *shrugs* Currently I'm feeling kinds ill, probably just a cold. Earlier I had a killer headache. *shrugs*
Nothing that interesting has been happening lately. Pretty much the only thing of interest occuring is dealing with James. He still thinks he's in love with me, whether it be romantic or not. I broke down and started freaking out and crying one night while trying to go to sleep in his room. I was just overly paranoid, torn between thinking everything in the room would turn into something nightmare-ish, and thinking that James would turn into a creature from the darkest depths of my imagination. That was sooo lovelyyy. Currently I'm working on an infatuation with Animal Crossing, I love fishing XD;;; And house of the dead III, shooting zombies is lovely. So I either like horrifying or excessively cute games, lovely o_O;
Oh, I have an essay I need to do that is dued tomorrow, and it is almost 12 a.m. now -_-;;;; And also a 8-10 page essay that is my midterm for poli. sci. dued Friday O_o;;; Fun.
I tells you lies at 11:54 PM
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Wednesday, September 10, 2003
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Why...did I tell James that I don't cut anymore? And why do I still cut? I keep thinking I've stopped. And that DAMN fire drill today, I had about 8 cuts all over my arms and was working on more, good thing I had the mind to grab a long-sleeve shirt. Maybe it is the temperature, I tend to cut when it is colder outside, strangely enough. Eh, whatever. However the way I cut is different now, now I pretty much barely preceptable cuts, ones that I can feel but people can't really see. Ones that heal over fast without really leaving a mark. Before I would be rather messy about it and cut pretty much the same area over and over.
Tomorrow I have a Sign Language quiz o_o; Good thing it is REALLY cold in the room so I have an excuse to wear a long-sleeve shirt.
I tells you lies at 8:46 PM
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Tuesday, September 09, 2003
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Currently listening to The Juliana Theory CD Mercp sent me last semester. IT has been awhile since I've listened to it. When Breathing By Wires came on I suddenly thought of Rosiel from Angel Santuary oO;;; I guess I'l forever associate that song with Angel Sactuary because I listened to it on repeat so much while reading Angel Santuary last semester. Hm...I've been meaning to re-read all of Angel Sanctuary at some point, but I have yet to get around to it. Ah well, I shouldddd do my assigned readings, but instead I'm procrastintaing of course. Nothing new XD The repeatitive cycle of procrastination continues XD
I'll have my English class in about half an hour, well, at least I did the reading for that class XD I need to go to the post office to mail off payment for a hell lot of stuff I got on ebay XD I should stop spending so much there >.>; Tis additictive _-_;;;
I tells you lies at 11:32 AM
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Monday, September 08, 2003
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I think I'll still stick with the dark color scheme, but as for images, I don't know, maybe mess around with one or a couple in adobe photoshop since I've been messing with images so much for icons XD;;;; Currently I'm at the pause between classes for the day. At 2:40 p.m. I have my Adolescence Psychology class. I have three classes today -_-;; I dislike having both Modern World History and American Politics before lunch, I think it makes me hungrier, ah well -_-;; Time to go read Clamp's Tsubasa: Reservoir Chronicle, I'm finding it more and more interesting, as with any Clamp series. So here starts the addiction to Clamp once again. It seems like I have been neglecting works by Clamp and Kaori Yuki, as compared to when I read them all the time before going on summer brake.
I tells you lies at 12:49 PM
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Sunday, September 07, 2003
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Oh fuck it, I'm bored and I have nothing else better to do. So now my blog is back, don't know what's the point, no one probably visits it anymore, and I think I want it that way.
Okay, so I need to replace the layout with something new >.>; Too bad I'm too damn lazy right now, and also lacking in interest XD Currently more involved with my livejournal than anything else. Who knows if I will ever post anything of interest in here anymore. Not that there really was anything of interest in it before, eh?
I tells you lies at 3:18 PM
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Sunday, February 23, 2003
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ah...hahaha. I should have known, I'm back to being highly depressed now for no reason. Is it really possiblle for me to live like this? I feel that I am depressed because I was close to being happy. My head hurts, I'm confused, someone do me the favor of killing me since I'm to weak to do it myself?
I tells you lies at 1:31 AM
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Saturday, February 22, 2003
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Ah...tired, lazy, maybe I'll blog about it later? *shrugs* Eh, only 11:15 p.m., I suppose I shall blog it.
Oh, James said he might actually major in English. He is good at writing. I thought he was going to major in physics since he's very good at that XD Anyway, he says alcohol is getting around to making him queasy before making him tipsy, yay XD So he was sober yesterday and today XD Since he was bored and I wanted to watch Cowboy Bebop, I came over to watch it ^^
So I came over sometime after 12 a.m. XD Since I took awhile to get myself off AIM. AIM is addictive _-_;;; Anyway, since I didn't bring my glasses I decided to sit in the chair in front of the computer. James stayed on the bed which is across from the computer. The bed's kinda elevated, like a semi-loft thing, if that makes any sense. So the bed is actually slighly higher than where the computer was. He has a bunch of mints in his desk and a couple of atomic fireball lollipops, whee! XD Though I didn't like all the cinnonmoniness of it XD so I kept trying to make him take the candy back XD;;; At some point I sorta broke his lamp XD; I'm so accident prone _-_;; Eventually, when the episode quality got better, I joined him on the bed since I was tired. Since I didn't really care, he kept running his hand around on my back under my shirt XD He's a very tactile person, I suppose. I laid near the edge of the bed towards the computer and he was in towards the wall. Since I'm rediculously ticklish, I kept flicking his hand away from my side XD Finished watching all the episodes of CB around 5 a.m. XD Since I was tired I just went to sleep, though I switched to the inside of the bed since I was pretty sure I would roll off if I wasn't XD I eventually woke up around 12 p.m. I was too lazy to go to brunch, so I just stayed in his bed and read one of his comics until he came back XD I watched him play computer games and read comic books when he came back XD I'm easily entertained ^^; I had fun playing with his hair, all curly! I usually play with straight/wavy hair. Curly hair is groovy XD Since he's lower then I am when he sits in the chair and I'm on the bed, I kept using him as a pillow XD Though I started playing with the keyboard while he was playing a game since I was curious as to what each letter could do XD;;; So of course, wrestling ensued XD;; Then he tried to kiss me XD;;; I backed away and fell under the bed XD Since it was dinner time, I finally left. Though I took one of his shoes XDDDDDDD After dinner, I was wondering back to give him his shoe XD But I saw him going to dinner with mismatched shoes XDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So I asked if he wanted the shoe back and threw it at him XD At least it didn't go in the lake XD, but it did go in the snow XD;; Still, it was highly amusing to see him with mismatched shoes XDDDD
*looks at the XD's peppering the post _-_;; you know it is a fiore post when XD's and various other emoticons are the punctuation marks of choice*
fioreail 777: though I do vaguely like tenis, vollayball (can't even spell it o_O;;-), and bowling XD
fioreail 777: ingore the wingo
fioreail 777: *dies*
fioreail 777: *ignore the wink
fioreail 777: I am Ingore the Wingo XDDD
gotta love my typos _-_;;;
I tells you lies at 11:30 PM
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I got a bunch of random clothing at the used clothing sale which was some sorta of fund-raiser XD
Oh, finally got to see all of Cowboy Bebop, woo! Well, almost, "Wild Horses" didn't worl ^^;; I want to James' dorm to mooch the anime off him XD More details or whatever later. Nothing raunchy, you raunchy kids o______O
I tells you lies at 8:39 PM
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oh, and amusing line of the moment
SweetVenusAngel: I'll go be preverted with girls...
XD sounds so wrong when taken out of context, eh? XD
 I am a Hood.
I'm a dark horse, mysterious and sinister. People are never quite sure what to think of me, but at least I make them think.
(If you were not a Hood you would be an Origami Hat.)
What Sort of Hat Are You?
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I'm tired, I should be doing Spanish, but I don't want to. At least I took a shower and got laundry done with. I didn't know blood stains can come out of clothing after a week, by the way o_O; I accidently locked my room mate out of the room until 1 p.m. X_x;; I didn't really get out of bed until around 5 p.m. At least I went to dinner even though I missed lunch.
I tells you lies at 6:19 PM
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Took a random quiz from kawiko's dj, though I cut out the last part since I don't have a boyfriend XDDDD And I changed some of the lables out of boredom XD
H A V E . Y O U . E V E R
[pictured your crush naked?]: XD!!!!
[actually seen ur crush naked]: I wish *cough* nevermind XD;
[been in love]:no
[cried when someone died]: I haven't known anyone who died, amazingly enough
[lied]: all the time
D E C I S I O N S
[coke or pepsi]: don't care. one of them is too sweet, but I don't remember which
[flowers or candy]: edible flowers! XD
[scruff or clean shaven]: hm, depends on the person
[tall or short]: hm, don't care
W I T H . T H E . O P P O S I T E . S E X
[what do u notice first?]: clothing XD
[last person u slow danced with]: I don't dance
[worst question to ask]: one time I asked a girl if breasts are heavy like bookbags XD;;;
W H O
[makes u laugh the most?]: myself? XD
[makes you smile]: hm...none
[gives u a funny feeling when u see them]: Steve
[do you have a crush on?]: Steve >.>;;
[has a crush on u?]: a couple random people and James o_O;
[is easier to talk to]: depends about what o_O;
D O . Y O U . E V E R
[sit on the internet all day waiting for someone special to I.M. u?]: uh no, that would be kinda sad
[save aol/aim conversations]: Yes...for needs in the furture mwahahaha
[wish u were a member of the opposite sex]: No, though I think certin aspects is better, but then I would have to be with a girl and personaly I think they are pretty nasty, so then I would have to go gay...god knows how that would turn out. And just the though of anal sex sends me into convulsions ^^:
[cried because of someone saying something to u]: Yah..alot
H A V E . Y O U . E V E R
[fallen for ur best friend]: yes...wait, best aquaintance, not friend XD
[been rejected]: never told anyone how I feel ^^
[rejected someone]: yes
[used someone]: in what way? XD
[been cheated on]: never dated XD
[done something u regret]: all the time
W H O . W A S . T H E . L A S T . P E R S O N
[u talked to on the phone]: hm...o_O;...I think it was..eh...Steve possibly
[hugged]: I don't hug..but, it would have been James ^^;;
[u instant messaged]: talking to ChibiCC online right now XD
[u laughed with]: James
D O . Y O U
[Parli italiano]: o_O? no XD
[Parlez vous francais]: not at all XD
[Hable español]: very very little XD
[Fale O Português]: eh?
[Wie über Deutschen]: o_O?
N U M B E R
[of times i have had my heart broken?]: I don't have a heart XD
[of hearts i have broken?]: none
[of boys i have kissed?]: hm...on the lips? 2.
[of girls i have kissed?]: been kissed by at least different ones 3 X_x;;; Never initiated the kiss though.
[of continents i have lived in?]: one
[tyte friends?]: *dies* friends don't exist
[of people i consider my enemies?]: everyone including myself of course ^^
[of cd's that i own?]: counting burned ones? at least 300
[of scars on my body?]: I'm accident prone and I cut, so eh, don't know XD
I tells you lies at 6:17 PM
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Friday, February 21, 2003
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This quiz result amused me much XD Got it from Chibiweewee's blog.
Oh, and if you haven't noticed, I killed the botton on my tagboard, so go off and bug other people's tagboards, lol. I don't feel inclined to fix mine anytime soon. I got about eh...half an hour of sleep or something XD I'm tired, but hey, at least I got a shower earllyyy and had breakfast. I'm not going to lunch, I'm tired, I think I'll just goof off and entertain thoughts of studying for that Math test without actually studying. *yawn* Strange that I'm too tired to bother go eat _-_;;;
I saw James walking to class this morning. I wonder if I should have waved and said Hi. *shrugs*
I tells you lies at 9:48 AM
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